I saw my heart crushed to pieces once, twice, thrice.

I don’t know what purpose will I gain

That love has not treated my heart that nice.

But then there is God who catches my heart

Picked up the pieces of the broken part

Lifted my chin to look up at the horizons

and show the answer to my confusions

Yes, love has battered my soul

But that doesn’t push me to give it up

It even taught me to fill up the hole

To build a bridge and fill the gap

Perfect love drives away fear

Genunine love keeps you near

True love drives away anger
Real Love endures forever.

It is not about how you felt

It is more on why you feel

It is not about what happened to you

It is more on why it happens to two.

It is not about the shame of fall.

It is more on the rise above all.

It is not about what we have not.

It is more on what we have got.

Now I know what lies beneath this confusion

That God has shown me no illusion

Love is a purposive pain

That Jesus showed to show my MAINE

                        I

Which is love, which is not

Please tell me coz it means a lot

For this heart don’t know how

To deal with this feeling right now

                        II

I stumble in the dark

Searchin for a little spark

I am now so confused

I don’t know what I must refuse

I’ll seek for an answer

Even though it’ll cause forever

CHORUS

Oh please, could you tell me

What I must suppose to see

Give me one sign or more

Show what I’m looking for

I’ll wait for that moment

For, this I ask from above

Oh please tell me which is love

                 III

I don’t know how to tell

If it is love to which I dwell

For I thought that it is

But eventually it’s a miss

                 IV

What am I suppose to do

So I’ll know whom I’ll pursue

What I must understand

So I can firmly make a stand

I’ll search for an answer

Even though it’ll cost forever

PATAK NG ULAN SA SITIO BALANGABONG

MARAMING SALAMAT SA BUKANG LIWAYWAY

Isang pagpapala ang aking nasaksihan

Habang ako’y patungo sa katimugan

Wagas na kasiyahan sa puso’y sumilay

Nang masaksihan ko ang bukang liwayway

Ang kalangitan habang habang nag-aagaw dilim

Ang karagata’y di mawari ang lalim

Ang araw nama’y unti-unting sumusungaw

Pinakikilala ang langit na bughaw

At sa kanyang pagbati sa bagong umaga

Ang hangin nama’y marahan ang buga

Ang dagat naman ay malumanay ang alon

At bulwak ng barko’y kanyang hinihilom

Ang kalupaan unti-unting ngumingiti

Napapawi na gabi ng dalamhati

Kabunduka’y nariyan na’t nagpapasikat

Kaluntiana’y kanyang sinisiwalat

Ang lakas ng araw sa pisngi’y dumadampi

Tila nagsasabi sa iyo ako’y kampi

Nabibigay lakas sa umaga ng pag-asa

Pinasisiya mundong sadlak sa dusa

At habang kami’y lulan sa patutunguhan

Kaba’t takot nahahawi’t napaparam

Handa nang harapin anuman ang pagsubok

Handa nang talusin ang pakikihamok

Ako’y nagagalak at ito’y nasaksihan

Nagbigay ng buhay bago pa man lumisan

Salamat poon sa biyayang ibinigay

Maraming salamat sa bukang liwayway

Stand as long as there is life

Stand against all the strife

Stand even if you have fears

Stand though there are grief and fears

Stand every time you fall

Stand against the toughest wall

Stand amidst the sharpest thorn

Stand when you are all forlorn

Stand above your agony

Stand against the raging sea

Stand and you will rise

Stand then all will turn out nice

Confusion 

What is the reason behind this uncertainty?

Of the heart that treats you the best way it can

What could be the answer to my agony?

Of which my meek heart can no longer stand

The first eye to eye, you’re just a friend to me

For me it’s just fate that had brought you about

Because your presence was never meant to be

Mere chance is the bridge that kept us close all out

But now I know that it was truly for real

That love is sweeter the second time around

Yesterday, it’s a small thing, now a big deal

And I’m in the ravine of nowhere to bound

And from that dark and cold place of loneliness

You ignite the light that gives me warmth and joy

Never did I had this kind of happiness

Since, before this day, when I’m a little boy

Seeing you  in your infatuating smiles

Kept me out from all my troubles and fear

Though you’re far away from me a million miles

Your sweet and inspiring words had kept you near

Now I’m gonna be the prisoner of your charms

Detained in my own heart full of emptiness

But if you would let me hold you in my arms

Then I will know I had chosen the best

I know that someday somehow I’ll find the way

Of what really lies beneath this confusion

And if the stings of love arrives, come what may

As long as what I feel are not illusions

    We tend to overlook the “orientation from other people.”  We neglect what could have been other people think best for themselves.  We neglect what they would actually think or do. We often decide without knowing what other people think are best for themselves.

     Recently, I just felt burnt out from school stuffs. Lalo pa nung thesis presentation. I felt that is not a presentation for best in thesis but a presentation for best in presentation. Sobrang disappointed ako… I’m not after for best thesis, that’s least among my reasons for presenting. What I really am after is to present the fruit of my hardwork. I just want my audience to understand my work. It’s really a privilege that you could be in front of your classmates and almost all your professors are there presenting your very own study. But the academic activity turned into a chaos not only for  me but for other presentors as well.  parang haphazard yung presentation namin.  sobrang bilis at wala kang maiintindihan.

     Anyway, this entry is not really about my frustration from my thesis presentation which I believe I shouldn’t brood on too much and make a big fuss out of it.

     I just like to give thanks and honor our God for a wonderful experience yesterday because….

HE IS ALWAYS IN PERFECT TIMING

    Yesterday, fresh from the frustrating thesis presentation, I was really down. I didn’t have the urge to do my school stuff. but God sent HIS angel to save me in the verge of despair

HE KNOWS THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY

    I was really burnt out. But then yesterday’s “gala” with my friend turned out a bonding moment. And I really enjoy the company of my friend (but I’d rather call her my little big sister) and I got the opportunity to bond with her.

HE KNOWS THE PERFECT PERSON

     But most of all. He knows whom to tap and send perfectly for the perfect reason.  I was so relieved of my burnt out. Maple (my ever kulit and kalog little big sister) treated me in Alabang Town Center.  It was fun!!! No it’s not just fun… it’s supercalifragilisticexpialidotious. I’m just so happy that she’s there.  I just realized that this year, everytime I feel sad she’s always there to comfort though oftentimes she really don’t know that I’m sad at that moment.  There was once this incident when one day I just felt disappointed because I’m disappointed with my Anthro 111 exam, I failed by a single point. I didn’t want to work after that and I have to deal with my thesis at that time but Maple called up, as usual in her very kulit way of talking almost taking my wits out me. She is full of stories and her stories just take my imagination as if I’m reading a novel or a great story. But that moment definitely took me out from the ravine of despair I’m into. She didn’t know it but I was relieved. 

     Yesterday was just like the same moment that happened before, a dejavu. But it’s quite different. I was not just able to talk to her, but she even accompanied me.

    I was just reminded how great God is for sending her. She’s always in the perfect time. I don’t know if that’s because she’s makulit and she kept on calling at our house. But what I do know is, she’s God-sent. She’s my little big sister and she’ll always be in my heart.

That even my tears can’t quench this thirst

As my soul yearns feeling all alone

Oh! I’m not alone, there’s me and my poem

I searched deep, owning the pain inside

brooding if, I’m just one set aside

Perhaps I’m not, there’s my other half

who shares with me though this day is rough

As I dig the words rooted from pain

I pull out the thorns stuck in the game

the sudden burst just turned into peace

when i found myself scribing this piece